When I close my eyes and visualise my life, I see a small contained vessel of self. I am separated from the world around me by a thin layer of feelings and idiosyncrasies, awash in an ocean of everyone and everything. Sooner or later though, I hope this capsule will dissolve. I don’t want to be trapped in the same way I always have. I want to be a part of all of it, to experience all of it.

The one thing I will always be is permanent.

In my heart I wanted so much for it to be good, I needed it to be good. If we’re being frank about things, I deserved that.

That search and desire to grow is what led me here and now it’s leading me in a direction I don’t yet understand. I have to follow it, no matter where it leads me.